https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/25/i-am-not-going-to-ca-i-do-not-have-the-time-or-money-certain-actions-that-needed-to-have-been-taken-years-ago-never-occurred-i-am-resentful-that-once-again-all-eyes-are-on-me-on-my-actions-rather/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-25T06:30:53+00:00I am not going to CA. I do not have the time or money. Certain actions that needed to have been taken years ago never occurred. I am resentful that once again all eyes are on me, on my actions, rather than on you and yours. I have nothing to prove to you. It is the other way around, but you will never see that. I feel like an animal in a zoo. I miss feeling like this is a natural world. I miss love. This world feels controlled and contrived. I wish it wasn’t. Of course it holds good people in it. That is not debatable.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/24/since-becoming-aware-since-2011-it-feels-like-art-no-longer-imitates-life-it-feels-like-certain-peoples-art-dictates-the-way-the-world-is-going-to-view-life-life-imitates-art-nothing-feels-natu/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-24T06:12:34+00:00Since becoming aware, since 2011, it feels like art no longer imitates life. It feels like certain people’s art dictates the way the world is going to view life. Life imitates art. Nothing feels natural anymore. Everything feels artificial and forced.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/23/they-dont-think-they-are-above-the-law-they-are-above-the-law-https-youtu-be-ebpzayv0_amsi-ignre855gfxuvem/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-24T03:29:46+00:00they don’t think they are above the law..they are above the law. https://youtu.be/EBPZaYv0_AM?si=-IGNre855GFxUVEMhttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/23/feel-lost/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-24T03:26:31+00:00feel losthttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/23/i-dont-have-a-problem-with-people-reading-my-data-i-have-a-problem-with-people-deleting-it/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-23T17:04:55+00:00I don’t have a problem with people reading my data..I have a problem with people deleting it.