https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/26/they-want-my-life-to-be-an-outward-manifestation-of-their-inner-turmoil-in-other-words-they-do-not-want-what-is-best-for-me/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-27T03:39:09+00:00They want my life to be an outward manifestation of their inner turmoil. In other words they do not want what is best for me.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/25/i-wonder-if-this-is-going-to-be-my-life-from-now-on-watching-my-death-on-tv-over-and-over-until-i-actually-die-i-feel-overall-i-have-been-a-pretty-decent-human-being-in-this-lifetime-i-wonder-if-i/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-26T05:31:01+00:00I wonder if this is going to be my life from now on..watching my death on tv over and over until I actually die. I feel overall I have been a pretty decent human being in this lifetime. I wonder if I was a horrible person in a past life to deserve this fate. I die while everyone around me thrives. No out. No solution. A never ending loop of despair and frustration, but don’t you dare look at the environmental factors that caused this.