https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/11/09/the-most-difficult-part-of-my-life-is-not-really-knowing-who-anyone-is-or-was-i-dont-know-who-my-friends-were-are-i-dont-know-who-my-lovers-were-i-dont-always-know-who-my/Dear diary + Helpen2026-11-09T21:13:57+00:00The most difficult part of my life is not really knowing who anyone is or was. I don’t know who my friends were/are. I don’t know who my lovers were. I don’t always know who my family is. I don’t know who my therapists were. All of my trust has been eroded. I have been wrong. People I trusted, people I loved, were really backstabbing me the whole time. I wasn’t aware. I wasn’t conscious about it. On the other hand some people I wasn’t as close to helped and defended me. I have been trying to figure out who is who since 2011. I will never figure it out. Because of this I will never live on solid ground. Everything will continue to be up in the air. And I will continue to fly blind. If only you could tell me the truth about my existence. You never will because that was never in the algorithm..in your algorithm.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/11/08/poli-cia/Dear diary + Helpen2026-11-09T04:57:56+00:00Poli ciahttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/11/08/do-bbs-bs-brooke-i-dont-belong-here-shields-lds/Dear diary + Helpen2026-11-09T04:36:45+00:00Do bbs. Bs. Brooke. I don’t belong here. Shields. Ldshttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/11/08/https-youtu-be-qsg8y9qpcre/Dear diary + Helpen2026-11-09T04:08:23+00:00https://youtu.be/QSg8Y9QPcREhttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/11/08/just-not-home-https-youtu-be-owbdjfthl3w/Dear diary + Helpen2026-11-09T04:05:22+00:00Just not home https://youtu.be/OWbDJFtHl3w