https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/10/21/yes/Dear diary + Helpen2026-10-21T09:15:41+00:00Yeshttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/10/21/maybe-it-is-the-link-to-my-sisters-bracelet-people-are-warning-me-about-i-realize-orders-are-given-and-people-have-to-consent-or-else-maybe-that-is-it-i-didnt-have-a-problem-with-people-obtaini/Dear diary + Helpen2026-10-21T08:47:47+00:00Maybe it is the link to my sister’s bracelet people are warning me about. I realize orders are given and people have to consent or else. Maybe that is it. I didn’t have a problem with people obtaining data. I had a problem, I have a problem, with people deleting my data. I have a problem with my data being put through a meat grinder and having the exact opposite of who I am or was shown to the world. I have a problem with a few people at the top controlling the lives of others through my life or data. I have a problem with them controlling careers, including my sons, of not having any respect for the bodies they are using to amass great amounts of wealth for themselves. I have a problem with them killing certain people in my life and then replacing them with fake storylines and actors that stroke their egos. How am I different than a circus performer (who doesn’t get paid for her performance) or an animal at the zoo when certain people at the top control the lives of the real people at the bottom? They control us and we have to operate within their system. Even typing on this website could be hurting me for all I know. What you did to my son at his job you can do to me anywhere I go. I don’t want my life to be put in the wrong hands. I want my life to be in God’s hands. Sometimes I I think I question God’s existence because there are too many people playing God around me. I want to be free God. I want to belong. I don’t like always feeling isolated and not a part of. I want honesty. I want to be free. Please free me (and not through death or injury). Free me God. Free the people around me to be themselves, so they don’t have to act. They can just be. I miss people being themselves. I miss myself, my true spirit, as well. Hard to be yourself when you are constantly playing defense.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/10/21/some-movies-hurt-a-little-more-than-others-especially-now/Dear diary + Helpen2026-10-21T07:54:14+00:00Some movies hurt a little more than others. Especially now.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/10/20/too-many-warnings-regarding-something-that-is-happening-with-my-son-and-the-new-shower-curtain-this-is-my-life-one-red-alert-after-another-guess-it-is-going-to-charity-like-most-other-things/Dear diary + Helpen2026-10-20T20:10:39+00:00Too many warnings regarding something that is happening with my son and the new shower curtain. This is my life. One red alert after another. :( Guess it is going to charity like most other things.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/10/20/who-is-who-in-the-bible-who-is-who-in-hollywood-who-is-who-in-real-life/Dear diary + Helpen2026-10-20T10:16:46+00:00Who is who in the Bible? Who is who in Hollywood? Who is who in real life?https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/10/20/the-fan-confusion/Dear diary + Helpen2026-10-20T09:35:28+00:00The Fan? Confusion.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/10/19/like-the-bruce-springsteen-song-says-oh-girl-that-feeling-of-safety-you-prize-well-it-comes-with-a-hard-hard-price-you-cant-shut-off-the-risk-and-the-pain-without-losin-the-love-that/Dear diary + Helpen2026-10-20T04:50:05+00:00Like the Bruce Springsteen song says “Oh, girl, that feeling of safety you prize well, it comes with a hard, hard price. You can’t shut off the risk and the pain without losin’ the love that remains. We’re all riders on this train.”https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/10/19/i-know-people-warned-me-at-the-expense-of-themselves-that-is-why-i-still-believe-there-is-more-good-out-there-than-bad-because-why-would-you-do-that-for-a-stranger-someone-you-dont-know/Dear diary + Helpen2026-10-20T04:26:28+00:00I know people warned me at the expense of themselves..that is why I still believe there is more good out there than bad. Because why would you do that for a stranger? Someone you don’t know.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/10/19/i-ran-away-from-the-pain-in-txonly-to-become-numb-in-ut-when-you-allow-yourself-to-feel-pain-you-also-allow-in-love-you-dont-block-it-out-that-is-what-i-lost-when-i-moved-here-t/Dear diary + Helpen2026-10-20T04:22:53+00:00I ran away from the pain in TX…Only to become numb in UT. When you allow yourself to feel pain you also allow in love. You don’t block it out. That is what I lost when I moved here.. the good along with the bad. Maybe I needed to experience this. I am going back. Maybe nothing will change..most likely nothing will change…but at least I will not accept numbness for the final chapter of my life.