https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/27/progress-to-them-meams-more-fame-money-houses-power-glory-etc-in-terms-of-me-they-think-they-have-made-great-progress-by-claiming-maybe-she-doesnt-have-a-penis-and-maybe-she-is-not-retarded/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-27T12:18:55+00:00Progress to them meams more fame, money, houses, power, glory, etc. In terms of me they think they have made great progress by claiming maybe she doesn’t have a penis and maybe she is not retarded…just maybe. Lucky me. So appreciative of your help. Also they don’t exist. It is all in my head and anyone who dares to get close to me is highly controlled or killed off. Tell me, what the hell is there to look forward to in your version on Utopia? Did what I want ever matter to anyone?https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/26/they-want-my-life-to-be-an-outward-manifestation-of-their-inner-turmoil-in-other-words-they-do-not-want-what-is-best-for-me/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-27T03:39:09+00:00They want my life to be an outward manifestation of their inner turmoil. In other words they do not want what is best for me.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/25/i-wonder-if-this-is-going-to-be-my-life-from-now-on-watching-my-death-on-tv-over-and-over-until-i-actually-die-i-feel-overall-i-have-been-a-pretty-decent-human-being-in-this-lifetime-i-wonder-if-i/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-26T05:31:01+00:00I wonder if this is going to be my life from now on..watching my death on tv over and over until I actually die. I feel overall I have been a pretty decent human being in this lifetime. I wonder if I was a horrible person in a past life to deserve this fate. I die while everyone around me thrives. No out. No solution. A never ending loop of despair and frustration, but don’t you dare look at the environmental factors that caused this.