https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/16/friggin-idiots/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-16T16:59:10+00:00Friggin’ idiotshttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/16/paralyzed-by-fear-right-now/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-16T13:21:43+00:00Paralyzed by fear right now.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/16/like-the-song-goes-i-wanted-words-but-all-i-heard-was-nothing-nothing/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-16T11:27:03+00:00like the song goes…i wanted words but all i heard was nothing..nothing.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/16/i-never-had-a-problem-with-friends-who-have-100-acres-of-land-to-live-happily-ever-after-on-the-people-i-have-a-problem-with-are-the-people-who-dont-think-i-have-a-right-to-own-1/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-16T11:08:05+00:00I never had a problem with friends who own 100+ acres of land to live happily ever after on… I have a problem with people who don’t think I deserve to own 1 acre of land…many of the people who feel I don’t deserve it have used my life (data, narrative control,etc)to obtain great wealth for themselves. You know, the whole this land is your land, this land is my land thing. Most of all, being an endangered species, I would like something to leave my children. I don’t want to worry about their survival.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/16/forgot-to-add-i-fight-in-my-dreams-but-wake-up-wishing-i-didnt-have-to-i-wonder-if-one-day-i-will-not-feel-the-need-to-fight-at-all-i-cant-remember-what-not-fighting-feels-like/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-16T10:47:15+00:00forgot to add…i fight in my dreams but wake up wishing I didn’t have to. I wonder if one day I will not feel the need to fight at all. I can’t remember what not fighting feels like.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/16/part-of-me-wants-to-hold-my-tongue-when-i-am-angry-the-other-part-says-you-have-a-right-to-your-feelings-express-yourself-you-dont-need-to-perform-anymore/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-16T10:45:09+00:00part of me wants to hold my tongue when i am angry…the other part says you have a right to your feelings..express yourself..you don’t need to perform anymore.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/16/many-make-movies-about-saving-others-removing-them-from-sex-trafficking-rings-onscreen-but-how-many-truly-help-in-real-life-how-many-have-owners-just-as-evil-as-the-villians-they-fight-against-in-t/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-16T10:42:40+00:00many make movies about saving others, removing them from sex trafficking rings onscreen, but how many truly help in real life? how many have owners just as evil as the villians they fight against in their movies? sometimes it feels so hopeless and sick. sometimes it feels beyond repair.. like that blink 2x movie with no female empowerment at the end..it feels so empty. i go from one situation to another seeking safety, to escape, only to be abused further by yet another rich prick..https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/16/i-wish-i-didnt-let-some-people-touch-me-my-skin-literally-crawls-thinking-about-it-the-deceivers-the-users-and-abusers-other-men-i-miss-their-warmth-i-felt-protected-even-if-it-didnt-las/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-16T10:40:07+00:00I wish I didn’t let some people touch me…my skin literally crawls thinking about it…the deceivers…the users and abusers…Other men..I miss their warmth. I felt protected even if it didn’t last for very long.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/16/in-my-dreams-nightmares-i-am-still-fighting-other-peoples-demons-as-well-as-my-own-so-i-guess-i-havent-given-up-completely/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-16T10:35:44+00:00in my dreams/nightmares I am still fighting other people’s demons as well as my own..so I guess I haven’t given up completely.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/16/in-the-past-i-had-a-tendency-to-see-people-for-who-i-wanted-them-to-be-not-for-who-they-were-now-i-dont-see-anymore-anyone/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-16T07:10:57+00:00in the past i had a tendency to see people for who i wanted them to be, not for who they were. now i don’t see anymore, anyone.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/15/take-it-from-me-just-because-you-have-invisible-friends-does-not-make-you-crazy-grateful-for-my-invisible-friends/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-15T20:53:03+00:00Take it from me, just because you have invisible friends does not mean you are crazy. Grateful for my invisible friends.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/14/playing-charades-with-the-world-and-not-understanding-the-conversation-again-google-search-ai-definition-unalienable-rights-meaning/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-15T05:42:59+00:00Playing charades with the world and not understanding the conversation…again. Google search ai definition: unalienable rights meaninghttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/14/of-all-of-the-things-i-miss-the-most-losing-the-ability-to-be-an-active-participant-in-my-life-has-been-the-most-painful-when-people-are-acting-around-you-24-7-and-trying-to-control-your-movements/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-15T05:08:00+00:00of all of the things i miss the most, losing the ability to be an active participant in my life has been the most painful…when people are acting around you 24/7 and trying to control your movements to benefit themselves, it feels lonely. free will takes a back seat and i keep wondering if it will ever return..some people don’t want me to be happy because secretly they are so unhappy. some people won’t give up being the victim or hero in their minds because image overrides honesty. i don’t want to be like them but it is hard to be positive when i was told i lived in the usa and that i had certain unalienable rights. not un alien able. Unalienable.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/14/why-isnt-he-sending-over-the-paperwork-what-went-wrong-should-i-look-for-another-job-why-do-they-always-entrap-me-then-expect-me-to-leave-i-dont-do-passive-aggressive-very-well-but-it-seems-to/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-15T04:50:36+00:00why isn’t he sending over the paperwork? what went wrong? should i look for another job? why do they always entrap me then expect me to leave? i don’t do passive aggressive very well but it seems to be an artform for many.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/14/will-u-ever-admit-u-exist/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-15T00:49:48+00:00will u ever admit u exist?https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/14/1-corinthians-13new-international-version/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-15T00:15:34+00:001 Corinthians 13New International Versionhttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/14/i-dont-know-if-i-regret-giving-it-material-goods-all-away-or-watching-people-take-them-i-dont-know-how-i-could-have-protected-myself-from-the-amount-of-hate-and-greed-that-would-come-my-way/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-15T00:12:26+00:00I don’t know if I regret giving it (material goods) all away…or watching people take them.. I don’t know how I could have protected myself from the amount of hate and greed that would come my way..I do know I was worried my children and I would not survive at one point. At least I still have my children..who taught me what love was. We have survived up until now because of the kindness of strangers. Thank you God for giving me that tremendous gift. Thank you for showing me what is most important in life even on the days I don’t recognize what you have given me.https://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/14/https-youtu-be-3yxaaggtqymsi6x3plyepsjl-plqc/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-15T00:01:15+00:00https://youtu.be/3YxaaGgTQYM?si=6x3pLyEpsJl-PlQChttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/14/https-youtu-be-5anlpw0efmosiqdtoylntyqowxaqo/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-15T00:00:04+00:00https://youtu.be/5anLPw0Efmo?si=qdToyLnTYQowXAqohttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/14/https-youtu-be-vk0xkd8qs9isihtisfr5lhcx4d2hn/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-14T23:58:19+00:00https://youtu.be/Vk0xkd8qs9I?si=HtISFr5lHcX4d2Hnhttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/14/https-youtu-be-tencoocmpqmsixu9bpbnig10nia2o/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-14T23:56:03+00:00https://youtu.be/tEnCoocmPQM?si=xu9BpbnIG10niA2Ohttps://dear-diaries.blog/2026/06/14/sometimes-music-expresses-feelings-better-than-i-can-memories-and-dreams-mostly-from-the-past-https-youtu-be-z5-nddyvbjwsioczseebhm7uu8wo/Dear diary + Helpen2026-06-14T23:54:00+00:00sometimes music expresses feelings better than I can..memories and dreams mostly from the past. https://youtu.be/Z5-NDdyVBJw?si=ocZseEbhm7UU8wo-