from a human standpoint…(some people still know what that is, right?) i feel embarrassed and ashamed i thought certain people were my friends. it turns out they were just using me for some movie with political undertones. they call me SCHitzophrenic when every single one if their actions is schitzophrenic. it is really really crazy. because of this who can i trust? maybe no one anymore. besides none of this exists. that is why therapy can’t help…the first step in dealing with a problem is acknowledging that the problem exists..and you don’t exist. it’s all in my mind. as i have stated many times before it is not up to a dog in a shelter to unlock their door. only you can open their kennel door. but you won’t because you would lose your power, control, influence, and money. so i’ll just remain in hell…or dantes inferno whatever that is.