Today I am mostly upset because you won’t let people talk to me directly. It feels like you don’t want them to influence my decisions. Other people try to help but it is all indirectly. It is not that I don’t appreciate their help, but why can’t I talk to anyone directly? I guess you don’t want your economy to be hurt, but what about our lives? Our welfare? Our economy? Why can’t I make an informed decision about my future? Why is it always tied in to your future? I am just sad. I don’t understand. If it was a situation that I didn’t understand, but I thought you were working in the best interests of myself and my children that would be one thing. But it doesn’t feel like that. Lying about someone, saying they are a daily drinker, etc. when they hardly drink at all is just evil. Why do you behave like this? It is a fun house of mirrors 24/7, but nothing is funny. I want to escape, but feel I can’t. Then I worry that you will kill off anyone who tries to help me if his help is not aligned with your money interests…I don’t want to have to worry about that. I just want to live my life. You have not been honest with the world. What am I not understanding?