Sometimes it feels like I never got divorced…If I had stayed married I could have had all of the riches in the world..If I remained the world’s favorite punching bag for family members and others I could have anything I wanted. If I dared to become my own person separate from what the world expected from me then I deserve nothing. Not sure why the HR website will not let me add shifts…maybe it has something to do with not buying BeHr paint, maybe I don’t want to continue to be the world’s welfare queen with absolutely no say where any money goes while her and her child’s life is being ripped off, stolen, and torn apart, but I have a right to have my own life and to be treated like everyone else. The world says you are this or you are that. You are her or you are him. All I want to be is myself…but that does not appear to be an option for some. They would rather I remain a mirror to all of their thoughts and desires. The world is about them and had/has nothing to do with what is best for me. I live to serve them..period. There is no equality. It is all smoke and mirrors.