How can you claim this is a free world when you kill off anyone I get close to? How can I feel love for anyone under these conditions? I cannot believe this is my life. It always starts like this…feeling under the weather…blood work comes back irregular, post nasal drip, cancer, etc. How can they get away with this? How did killing become so normal? Why does my life not matter? What is there to look forward to if everyone I get close to is under threat of injury? Or is that the point? To erase all hope in order to maintain control?