I want something good to happen God. My life has been about managing one crisis to the next…waiting for the other shoe to drop. Nothing ever changes. I live in a state of hyper vigilance and numbness at the same time. I need to cry but can’t. Why can’t my child get helped? Why can’t he find work? Are your zoo animals really that insignificant? Are we only alive to serve you? Is that how you view us? Are we here only to be used? And when we are no longer useful do you throw us away like trash? So much death. So much destruction. Why can’t something good happen for once?