the sunshine state.. I remember reading on websites women talking about not being connected to their children. That was never the case with my depression. I was always extremely bonded to my children. I just got into a marriage where I did not feel emotionally connected to him and I lost touch with myself. I am not saying he is a bad person. I don’t feel that way. I think inherently he is a good person. We were just not good together. For some reason I feel like this narrative is not accepted. It has to be a problem with me..always. A chemical imbalance, postpartum, etc etc. It is never a problem with the environment. I feel like we both liked each other for the wrong reasons. You can have everything physically on the outside and internally die when there is no emotional connection. An emotional connection with someone who understood and loved me anyway was what I truly wanted. I have never found that..so I will continue to learn to love and accept myself alone .something I did not know how to do before I entered my marriage.