One of the reasons I left my marriage was because I felt like an object. I truly felt that I could find someone who would love me for me. I wanted what you had, but I see now I wanted something that didn’t exist. If I felt I had one true friend in this, who had no ties or obligations to Hollywood, or a network, or Humane Society, etc I might be happier. But every day it is a different betrayal, until there is no one left…not really. Only voices on screen..Even when you get together with family and friends there is at least one voice trying to assert their dominance and control. Not much is natural anymore. I move from one jail to a prison. People say they are one way, but then you find out they are the exact opposite of who they pretend to be. I see why I bonded to animals and my children when they were younger..(still bonded but society taught them how to lie. I suppose I did too as I cannot tell them what I really think or feel)..They were the only ones not lying. It doesn’t mean I don’t feel love for some people. I do. It is just not the same after betrayal and betrayal and betrayal. I cannot trust anyone anymore.
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