I fear being manipulated as you all can see who is who and what is what and I can’t. I don’t really know who anyone is and I usually assume the best of motives…telling me to change this or that because I think you are trying to HELP. Many times you are not. It is more about control and control of the narrative than it is about helping. Now this whole Cathy Andersic..etc. Cathy the dolphin…I don’t even know what to think. Maybe you are referring to who is in charge at Az. I don’t know. All I know is I am tested and retested and then tested again EVERYWHERE I go. No workplace is safe for me, no job. If they are going to get you they are going to get you one way or another. It is me against multi billion dollar companies…who do you think is really going to win? I may put a dent in the Trojan horse every now and then but I am not going to overestimate my ability to truly change the system. That can only be done by you. I don’t even feel safe in my own home. I never feel safe anywhere. I don’t know who to trust or who not to trust. I don’t know if damage to my property or car is done intentionally or if it is all wear and tear. When you tell me to do something or not to do something I don’t know who you are. I don’t know what movie studio you are with. I don’t know what grievance you have with your opponent. I don’t know any of that. Like a young kid in the middle of a contentious divorce..I don’t know what is really going on. I just feel used a lot of the time…usually by one side more than the other. When I was going through my divorce I tried to keep my mouth shut about issues I had with their father. It was only until later that I complained about him here or there..I am human..not a robot. And I would never tell my kids what I really thought about some people in my life because I would not want to ruin what the relationship they have with those people. I do not want to damage the bonds they have with others because of my assumptions or pride.
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