Once they start making money from you and gaining more power, they never really let you go, do they? It doesn’t matter what you say. It doesn’t matter what you do. It doesn’t matter who you are. It doesn’t matter if you say no or change your mind. It doesn’t matter if you beg for a better life for your children. There is no escape for you in their movies and shows. They dare to call you a narcissist when they forcibly make the world revolve around them. My goal will continue to be to leave UT if my son is not treated respectfully. It may be no different in TX or anywhere else, but I will have the illusion that it will be…even if I have to lose money once again. Even if you take everything. I don’t like the sound of the sirens even if they are trying to convey something or help. I am reminded of movies where people live and die in camps. I don’t want to die in a camp surrounded by no one in real life who cares. The feeling you have in an abusive relationship. They don’t really want you. They never truly saw you, but they don’t want anyone else to have you. At least I have my son with me. I love him even when he is a pain. I wish I had someone who could speak the truth to me..directly..not through rhymes and riddles. That has not happened since 2011. Why would I think it would change now? I think of the serenity prayer. Agreeable gray..I disagree with you. But you make it abundantly clear you can squash us like bugs or kill us like deer during hunting season, so why argue? Why argue with the safe people? The noble people? The higher than thou people? Believing the results of the midterms will change our situation is also insane, but I can still hope right? I can still believe the world will one day do the right thing. Please God show me the right way to go..the way that will help not only me, but will help my babies as well. Please show me the way. I want to live in a place that feels the least like Nazi Germany however that feels. Please be my inner compass. Show me where we belong if anywhere. Make it right. Get these power hungry imposters away from us. Please bring in real. Keep them away. We were born not being able to see the truth, to know what the real situation is. We cannot see, we can just react, and feel like my dog does when he hears the sirens…out of control inside with no words to explain it. No words at all.