Dear diary + Help

• Much of my life has been “He’s a hero because he got me out of that situation with that abusive person.” The only problem is I never move on to a better situation. They tell me where I am not wanted but never tell me where I am.

• So I will age gracefully alone. It didn’t have to be this way but you have left me with no other choice.

• What if everyone cares and no one cares at the same time? How can I trust others when I don’t anymore. How can I truly care about people when there is no trust? I miss the way I used to be.

• I know he is not allowed to answer. My feelings never mattered. Only your feelings matter. Freedom has always been an illusion.

• Why don’t I have good dreams? Dreams of being the world’s biggest cash cow: nothing more, nothing less. No colors. Only gray.

• In the past I had friends I could talk to for hours. I miss that..having that trust. I am grateful for my online friends as I have learned to listen a little more. I have had to as no one can live in isolation.

• Alec https://youtu.be/y-lXbTdDlxw?si=L58hJNg74BCtVvNX

• who is the threat?

• I am confused now. Is this show supposed to be a joke? Talk to ERc? ABdul? Admitted herself into an institution willingly? Who are you fighting? Are you calling out the hypocrisy or are you the hypocrisy?

• Still unbelievable what you did and will still do in order to “win” whatever it is you win. Some people literally make me sick with their lies and propaganda. And these are the world leaders? The people you choose to worship? I honestly do not get it. Thank God I don’t understand certain kinds of evil masquerading as good.