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On one of my AI directed calls today..one of the robotic voices said something that imitated human emotion..like sorry or something..I forgot exactly what it was. I just remember it irritated me.
The problem has always been that the duplicate’s lives were always considered so much more important than the originals lives.

part of me wants to hold my tongue when i am angry…the other part says you have a right to your feelings..express yourself..you don’t need to perform anymore.
many make movies about saving others, removing them from sex trafficking rings onscreen, but how many truly help in real life? how many have owners just as evil as the villians they fight against in their movies? sometimes it feels so hopeless and sick. sometimes it feels beyond repair.. like that blink 2x movie with no female empowerment at the end..it feels so empty. i go from one situation to another seeking safety, to escape, only to be abused further by yet another rich prick..
I wish I didn’t let some people touch me…my skin literally crawls thinking about it…the deceivers…the users and abusers…Other men..I miss their warmth. I felt protected even if it didn’t last for very long.
in my dreams/nightmares I am still fighting other people’s demons as well as my own..so I guess I haven’t given up completely.
in the past i had a tendency to see people for who i wanted them to be, not for who they were. now i don’t see anymore, anyone.
Take it from me, just because you have invisible friends does not mean you are crazy. Grateful for my invisible friends.
Playing charades with the world and not understanding the conversation…again. Google search ai definition: unalienable rights meaning

+8Unalienable rights are fundamental, inherent rights given to all individuals by virtue of being human. Because…
of all of the things i miss the most, losing the ability to be an active participant in my life has been the most painful…when people are acting around you 24/7 and trying to control your movements to benefit themselves, it feels lonely. free will takes a back seat and i keep wondering if it will ever return..some people don’t want me to be happy because secretly they are so unhappy. some people won’t give up being the victim or hero in their minds because image overrides honesty. i don’t want to be like them but it is hard to be positive when i was told i lived in the usa and that i had certain unalienable rights. not un alien able. Unalienable.
why isn’t he sending over the paperwork? what went wrong? should i look for another job? why do they always entrap me then expect me to leave? i don’t do passive aggressive very well but it seems to be an artform for many.
will u ever admit u exist?

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